Hi, and hey.
Ugh, been working alot, and getting nil as far as sleep. Sometimes I get four hours when I get home, and then four more before I have to stumble in to work. No big deal and all, but wah wah wah...
Anyhoo, lots of personal revelations that I shall not go into hurr. I will say that I definitely feel like a completely different person than the one who stated here. One day I will go through it all and enjoy the ride of a silly manchild who kicked and screamed all the way.
I'm not saying I've pussed out, and I'm some super serious fuddy duddy. I'm just, I dunno...
Hopefully coming out of a haze?
For so long consumed by hatred of all things, I've more drifted towards a gradual acceptance of the assfucking of this tiny nugget of the cosmos. Sometimes I'm still tired of everything feeling like it is hopeless, and futile, and pointless...
I want to do things I want to enjoy. yet I still have yet to again find things that arouse a passion unquenchable. I guess the ease of binging whatever we want, whenever we want, and wherever we want, has made me even more fidgety and such. Pause for more peanut butter chocolate bar...
Soooooooooooooooooooo good. See? Life is not always so bad.
Eh, comrade?
I'm just sayingI still have light and dark times. I've been working out alot and eating extremely religiously, so I'm rocking 170 and hoping to either lose more before beefing up, or lose as I beef.
Funny to reread that. Anyhoo, guess I will have to research which way works better, though I'm tryna do both, sort of.
No longer alone. Abort. Abort.
